27 feb 2010 when i want found someone, but dont know who is he

27 feb
I want someone to be together with me to build a beautiful relationship
But I never wanted a lie stand to be something to hide, but my feelings can feel how I saw was a bitter reality.

I can not breathe at that time
I do not want to ask the address guard of love
Then I regretted why were not to be a good scout
Oh really I was just a weak

I close these eyes, and heart feel so very bitter
Vinegar is smearing my wound, it will not recover quickly
If it should turn a blind eye in a half-century
So I would prefer not to dream
Leave blank, with thewound feelings

I see your shadow
I hear your voice
And I smell the scent of your body
All of that maybe I can forget one day
But did you also can not forget me?

Go to the sea or onto land
If I've thrown away
So I will never seen again
Pain can no longer perceived

I was very very near to you
But you can not see it
Finally, I entrusted a message
Do not ever ask me again to God.


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Not love in my life
Not ashamed because you do not love me
But fear can not let go of your hand if
And you burst into tears begging me
I do not have a first love
Honestly I never felt my first love
How does it feel
How manifestations
All I remember he was gone before I found it
Then I asked ...
Would I could meet again
No!

Let it go ... ...
I will not be many more questions
I know this direction and answers to typical god of all my questions
Leave it alone
I want to smile freely and rediscover the soul of a truly free
Yes free ..
Remove any

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How else should I express
If I really fall in love with you
But as usual I was a coward love
I was so naive and can not express to you

Taste, soul, longing profound
All of this self burn
It all got together and hit the conscious mind
That you is everything

There will be no substitute
And I found the arrow will never love like your love arrows
I will never though beauty but only with
And never will I call someone's name but it is your name

20 feb2010 at my cage in solitude

Now I feel these feelings no longer have the charm of longevity, even if there is only a breath for today only ...
If not that confident it will be I do reconnaissance on the basis of my heart full of doubt, I do not care about the outcome.

The trip is very tiring to remove all the questions not answered by a very brave
Finally, when finding all the bitterness you get back home with tears and profound fatigue
Not because of me, but because of feelings that have no meaning

Strand of memories realized or not will be a shadow in the day when the grandchildren were in addition to
What use what power
The wind will not grab fly me to you again

Feelings are not going to be captain again in this life voyage
Too many promises that have been denied
Too far to reach the forbidden seas and deserted valley
That is in plain sight now is the remnant of feeling disappointed